{01.31.04}
I still feel your presence inside of me. Tonight was.. just wonderful. And i know that i hate that word, wonderful, but still.

It just was.

My body is still tingling from the feeling of your fingers dancing across my back and stomach, and all around my neck - ever so lightly.
I still smell your scent on this gray zip-up hoodie you left behind, and as I try it on I realize its a few sizes too big for me.

Just how I like it.

Tonight, tonight was beautiful. After dinner, we got back to my house and went straight to my room. I put Blues Brothers 2000 in, I love that movie, and we sat on the bed to watch it. Several times I realized I was singing along, and saw you watching me with that look in your eyes.. that one that says just how much you love me. We kissed. I pulled you back on the bed, halfway on top of me, and we kissed.. until I heard a floor board creak and quickly sat up to get a drink.

Didn't want to be caught.

Once the movie was over, I turned on my radio and we listened, we sat there and talked. Soon words faded to gentle breathing, and I was content to simply get lost in your eyes. Lost in the blueness, the loving look i saw there..."I don't see the hazel" I whispered with a smile. Your eyes were blue with a hazel rim. And after a few moments, I could see it. I don't know why, but i love that little hazel rim in your eyes, and the wild little tufts of hair that never seem to be tamed.

I tore myself away, swam out of the deep pool of your love, just enough to see the clock and sigh. 10 minutes until you had to leave.

Despair filled my eyes, I didn't want you to leave. I looked into yours, which were searching my face as if trying to absorb every detail. "I.. I love you." I whispered, somehow knowing you'd hear me even over the bass driven lyrics sounding from my radio. "I love you too, Pooka." I smiled at my pet name and we began to talk. Several minutes later I interrupted you in the middle of a sentence. "Dammit.." And pulled you into a kiss. Then I smiled sadly and told you to locate your shoes, and get your jacket. I wanted to keep your hoodie, I wanted something to remind me of you.

And all too soon you were gone, and I am now alone once more.

I pull on your hoodie and snuggle up in it, dreaming of tomorrow, when I may once more feel the warm embrace of your love.

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